Unease
Unease All my life I have lived with a feeling of unease. I’m sure it has come from when I was very young but troubles in my life have made it worse. I think that the little boy needed to be told everything was alright and he was safe but that never happened. When I feel anxious now, it is coming from that little boy, and I have to let him know he is safe. Looking back I can remember moments when I felt upset and didn’t know why. My Mum was playing patience on the kitchen table, and I had my toys on the floor. Just the two of us neither speaking. The house was silent and I should have felt safe but I felt edgy. That all changed when my dad and brothers came home because the house was suddenly full of noise and activity. When I was fourteen I remember waiting at school for a friend before going home. It was winter and a dull early evening, and I suddenly felt down. These moments occurred throughout my life until the anxiety and depression appeared with full force when I was in my fo