Surviving the Christmas Period
For many, Christmas is a joyous time but for others, it can
bring loneliness and heartache. I think of all those people on the streets, the
families with no money and little food. We live in an affluent society but
there are still the ‘haves and have-nots’. I suppose I am in the group of ‘haves’
so that Christmas brings no financial worries or anxiety about buying presents
for those I love. I fall into a very different category hard for any outsider
to perceive from casual observation. I should be looking forward to this break,
but I don’t want a break because it will simply magnify the isolation I feel.
Two weeks with no AMC will be hard because I need to talk about how I feel.
Nearly three weeks without singing in my choir will be an ordeal since this is
one of my pleasures and a great distraction. It lifts me and keeps me buoyant
for days. Also, I usually speak to my counsellor on a Tuesday, and this year
that will be Boxing Day and he won’t be available. When you suffer from anxiety
and depression, you need simple routines and comfortable days, and having
everything disrupted feels like a punishment. I know I will survive all of this
and come out the other side but not everyone will understand my position, and many
will have little sympathy for someone they believe has nothing to complain
about. There will be many people like me, coping with mental health issues this
Christmas. I wish them all good luck and well-being and trust they can make the
most of this time of year. For me, Christmas Day spent with my family will help
me through.
Maybe some of your choir might be up for an online singalong?
ReplyDeleteIt's impossible to sing using the internet. Everyone's voice comes in at different speeds depending on the quality of the system used and the sound is horrendous. We only tried it once but thanks for the suggestion.
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